It is possible to focus on two major life events at one time? The answer for me lately has been no. My attention can’t seem to stretch any more than it already has. My goals have been placed in the driver’s seat and everything else has taking a backseat. I mean a third-row seat in my life. It’s been quite a struggle to balance parenting, working full -time, my new love which is blogging and my personal life. The sad part is that won’t get any easier in the upcoming months as I will be adding summer school and certification testing to the already hectic schedule that I’m now juggling. These other aspects of my life are just as important to me as my goals. In prior years I have placed my own needs and goals on the back burner for others, so now that my aspirations are front and center my tunnel vision won’t allow me to see anything else. I think a part of me wanted the people closest to me to understand that, and to be ok with that but somehow these things never seem to work out as we see them in our head.
I do believe I see a pattern in some occurrences in my life. I’m a giver. Even if you can’t see it for yourself I give. I give so much that I find myself so burned out. It sucks to be a giver who never receives in return. It’s like placing your extra cash in a savings account for 30 years then being told by the account representative that you can’t touch it in the instance of an emergency. How would that make you feel? I wanted Latoyatalks Tuesday to be a day where I really speak about personal experiences and the lessons that I’ve learned. It would only make sense for me to share a few of the thoughts that has been allotting space in my head/heart. Last week I started bullet journaling the thoughts, people, and circumstances that I’ve allowed to hold space in my life. I do this because if I can write it out and see it, I can begin to change what I see. Makes sense, right?
Life is all about experiences. We have the ability to learn so much about ourselves. We are in control of how we feel and how we react to situations that occur. Once we realize that, and begin to govern our lives. I feel we would all see major changes in ways we never thought possible.